I see you. You shut the door to the bathroom for 5 minutes of (hopefully) uninterrupted time. Some people might think it is so you can be alone with your thoughts, but being alone with your thoughts is the LAST place you want to be. Once the weight of it all hits you, you cry.
The weight of decision:
Being an entrepreneur means DECISIONS. All the decisions errday people! And guess what? Since you're the boss, you don't have anyone to blame it on when it goes wrong! And it will go WOEFULLY wrong! So many things will go wrong while you make adjustments, stay the course, start over, add to what you've built, try something new, or dig in- all with a grit you never knew you had.
You know it's a risk:
But, you also know that nothing in life is guaranteed. We live in a time of pink slips and job changes. Our career pahts will look very different than our parents'. It's ok to take risks in life, but you know you also have to be smart. Nobody will tell you if the risk will pay off. So, entrepreneur, is it time to dig in? To try something new? To invest more time, money, is it time to get help? Is it time to revamp? ALL of it is a risk and again, the buck stops with you.
People depend on you:
Your family? Your team? Your employees? Your mompreneur friends? Your future? This is not a low-stakes game. That's why what you are doing right now, today is SO VERY IMPORTANT. You are building something different. Something intentional. That takes guts.
And it is scary.
It's scary for lots of reasons. I mean, money matters! With people depending on you, that can be heavy to carry. My entrepreneur hubby and I are becoming better budgeters and are really focused on building/saving for our future (pssst...as an entrepreneur you have no 401k or portfolio except the one you build ;) ) It's also scary because, let's face it... people are slow to encourage but quick to judge. And you know who's the MOST judgmental of you?
You're doing better than you think. No matter where your business is, this is YOUR journey. . Your inner dialogue will determine a fair amount of your success. What are you saying to you while you try to grow this thing? I can attest to the fact that very few things can force you to grow like being the boss of your business.
Remember those growing pains you used to get at night? Behind your knees? (I didn't get many because I'm so short, but I had a few.) That's what these tears are- growing pains.
What do you need to do next? Take a deep breath and give yourself some grace.
Then, you'd better get back out there with your badass self. Us boss babes, we don't have too much time to waste crying.
Hi All! I'm Shanae. This is my blog all about mompreneuring! My passion is living life intentionally (which means, most of the time) differently! This is where I like to chat about "the hustle!" Work- Grow- Live & LOVE.